Happiness is pulled away from me once again.

I have feelings for this certain someone.
I had feelings for two certain someone's to be exact.
One was lost yesterday when I found out how stupid she is.
It is a harsh way to put it.
When a certain someone does certain things to make them "feel good," there is a certain extent you can go to make yourself feel good. When you do things such as inhaling certain fumes, which is unacceptable, and just a way to destroy your mind. I lost almost what little feelings I had for this person.

The other, well this person is amazing, she is one of those girls, probably one of those only girls that I will ever get to say "She had me at hello."
The first time I saw her, I felt so shy to say anything.
I really do like this girl.

But she isn't looking for a relationship, which probably means that means no no for me asking her out. Knowing that made me really sad. I really really liked this girl, she was so perfect in every way. She's a girl where she could brighten up the room with her smile in a second.

I really like her still.

I just feel so confused.