Simple as that.

All good things come to an end.

Not again

I will never push my emotions towards like another person....ever again.

CD

I have this mix cd that I have here.

I want to give it to someone that makes me feel amazing. Someone I am INTERESTED in.


I don't know who to give it to.....

I really

Want to feel some sort of romantic emotion.

As the depression sets in with the marrow
I can not sit up at all anymore
I sink into as far as my chair goes in
My lethargic body sets like a candle


Blah.
I just have the worst of luck with romance don't I?

Shut down 3 times. Sweet.

Blah

One of the worst feelings ever is when you can't have what you can never have.
You know there was a time when you could of had that one thing, or at least had a chance to snag it.


But no, there are certain things that are keeping you from it.

There are restrictions. There were previous events that have caused this from being impossible to have.

Fuck.




Aside from that. My weekend was pretty amazing, other than the fact that I don't have a car at the moment.

I love my friends, and they love me. Fuck you. ♥

HEART

Girls are heart breakers.


Luckily,
for me,
It goes something like:

You can't be heartbroken if there is no heart to begin with.

SCORE.

Sadly that's false.
I have much heart. Just saved aside for something more.

We’re what separates the heart from the heartless, so we’ll keep pushing regardless.

Intensifyingly Brootal.



Aside from that:

TODAY shall be beyond amazingly awesome.

Going to Little Tokyo to hang out with the greatest friends you can ever have.

It's official

I hate Armenians.
Well almost all of them but maybe one.

So I went to a show yesterday and this Armenian douche bag kept kicking all the dancers, everyone wanted to really beat the fucking shit out of him, including myself.

After my friend and I had left the venue, some friends caught him alone in the ally.... and guess what? This faggot had brought a gun with him. What a pussy bitch, right?

This leads me to conclude that I hate all Armenians, not yet have I met one that has stayed my friend, or treated me like one.
Except one.



Have a wonderful Memorial weekend to whoever may read this!

Again! Sweet.

Romantically shut down yet again. I'm on a roll. Just gotta love it.
I may actually break a record of two in one week! Sweet.

I really dislike the opposite sex, and the same sex.

I am just someone full of tons of hate and love. Oh wow! Who wouldn't love it. (sarcasm)

Hmmm, we'll see how this week turns out. I'm going to go have some exciting singing time on Sunday with my very good bestest friends!

Optimism.

So Blog.... I have been thinking tonight, thinking about being optimistic and negative.

Which do you choose to follow? Do you follow being optimistic about things? or completely negative?
I myself just choose my gut feelings, if I have a feeling that something might actually happen, I feel a bit optimistic about it; I just feel more positive about it.
If I have high doubts, my assumptions are completely negative.
Why would you act positive towards something that is going to hurt you? That's just plain stupid.
Why are people so optimistic at times, just let the false feelings out of your body, it will help in the future.
All I must say is, BE FUCKING REALISTIC. Stop being such a fucking bitch sometimes. I mean, don't change your attitude, you just have to change your assumptions, yes that might change how your attitude is going to be, but wouldn't you want to be yourself and not something that you're not?
Ex: Very cliche, I suppose you can say. Say you like a girl, she doesn't know, you want to be around her, but if you act optimistic, you may scare her, if you act negative, she may feel weirded out. Be yourself, not something that will change and cause damage.

If you want to make a good first impression towards someone new, such as new family act yourself.

I'm done ranting!

I think I might be interested in someone of the other gender. OSHITWTFX Kinda confused on where to go though.
One thing I love about myself is that I'm not a super emotional person that's going to go crying to all their friends about their love life. One thing I will tell them is the positive news.

Hmmm...Let the Roller Coaster begin.

Goodnight, blog.

I must admit

I think I have found a person of the opposite sex that I am actually comfortable with. Yet at times I am very unsure what to say, and I say something completely obscured, I have to say it is awesome to hang out with them.

My main point of this entry is just to simply state that this person is ridiculously amazing. This person could easily make anyone happy.
Like I have never meet any person who is this good of a person. Well girl at least. I don't even know how to explain how like nice and fucking awesome this person is. It just amazes me someone can be like this.

It really does....I have never known anyone to be this fucking amazing.
Fuck.
It just blows my fucking mind.
I don't say this to suck ass or anything.
I say this just to say like how fucking amazed I am.
All girls I have ever met have always been so selfish to where they don't really care about others emotions. It's just horrible. Girls suck, actually so do guys, they're stupid.
Actually....everyone is stupid if you think about it. Just so unexplainable sometimes.

One guy will be VERY lucky one day. I hope that dumb ass doesn't fuck it up.

Anyways. I'm very tired. Goodnight!

I wish

I had someone to give all my love to.



Shit I feel like a little girl.


Fuck.

Depression sucks. I don't even want to get up anymore.

Sigh

I hate emotions.

Oh help

Fuck.

First of all.

Fuck.

Second of all.

Fuck.

Third of all.

Fuck

Fourth of all.

What the fuck.

I hate these nights.

Learning a new language, drawing. Writing. Listening to music. Rarely talking to someone.

Alone.

I hate it.

____________

The quiet owl.

As it roams it stays quiet, afraid to disturb others.

Swiftly roaming the forest rarely stopping to find something to eat, or some other animal to converse with.

As others roam past, none stop. All leave as if it's just an obstacle to overcome.

Just another pothole in the road.

Just another twig on the ground.

Just another ladder for some superstitious fellow to find their way around.

As many past, many are skeptical.

The owls does nothing but sit.

He does not know why people do not give him a chance.

He's not going to bite.

He's not going to peck.

All he would want at most is for you to pull the thorn out of his side.

For you to save him from the one thing that is causing him pain.

It effects him and every step he makes.

There once was another owl.

One that made him fly!

He didn't roam around when he was with the other owl.

The one they call sissy.

The one that they all think of as spectacular.

The one that can bring a glow into the deepest depths of earth.

Owl met sissy.

He did really find himself at home when he was around sissy.

Too bad sissy didn't feel the same, and to sissy.....well...thankfully the owl wasn't just some little ditch in the road.

______

Reality is a bitch.

All you ever need is just a little bit of loving.

I want a girl to call my own.

Not literally.

Just some special someone I can see myself being with a for a long time.

Someone that I can watch TV with.

Someone I could draw pictures with.

Someone that I could play video games with.

Sigh.

Goodbye and goodnight, blog.

I

Can't have what I can't get and want the most.
No one knows that it is though! >:]

I hate this feeling.

Such a hopeless feeling.



Time will tell what happens though.

So...

That one girl that liked me, I guess I got her really upset.

I ignored her for a day, and now she's mad. I think... Lol.
I felt really bad at first, but then it got to me that I couldn't handle. Being called every day, always wanting to talk almost every chance. It felt like I was being pulled away from everything to...TALK...on the phone with this person.

I don't like them anymore. They are immature and are probably talking shit like most people.

The Diamond

From where we begin, to where we end.
Obstacles are overcome.
Problems are dealt with.
When after death, what does it all matter?


The Aureole.
It wants to you, it feeds off of you.
As you chase it, it leads you away.
When we find our diamond, we feel the most ecstatic.
The diamond is somewhere to be hidden, lurking underneath it all.
Where can we find it? Such elation is brings to one's life.

Like a man and his child, his pride and joy.
What he finds before his child.
His diamond.
The way a dog and his bone are.
The way a boy and his toy truck are.
The way the little girl and her doll from birth are.
Heart brings the truth.
Heart brings it all out.
Heart brings the diamond.
You do not believe you have heart when you really do.
Everyone has a bit in them.

The diamond was once read to me as a lost rock in the sea by a good friend.

I see my diamond, I just cannot reach for it yet.

I love.

I love my best and close friends.

I'd do anything for them.

I love Matt and Heather. -Insert Happy Face-

They both are such great friends that cause me to smile all the time.

Happiness is pulled away from me once again.

I have feelings for this certain someone.
I had feelings for two certain someone's to be exact.
One was lost yesterday when I found out how stupid she is.
It is a harsh way to put it.
When a certain someone does certain things to make them "feel good," there is a certain extent you can go to make yourself feel good. When you do things such as inhaling certain fumes, which is unacceptable, and just a way to destroy your mind. I lost almost what little feelings I had for this person.

The other, well this person is amazing, she is one of those girls, probably one of those only girls that I will ever get to say "She had me at hello."
The first time I saw her, I felt so shy to say anything.
I really do like this girl.

But she isn't looking for a relationship, which probably means that means no no for me asking her out. Knowing that made me really sad. I really really liked this girl, she was so perfect in every way. She's a girl where she could brighten up the room with her smile in a second.

I really like her still.

I just feel so confused.