First Days

So last week it was my first week of school.

Quite a few people are starting school today. I wonder if they are going to feel the pressure and the stress I felt.
This past week was stressful. Probably from having to travel so much in one day, and then having to come home and worry about the every day cooking, eating, cleaning, homework etc.

We'll hopefully I find someone I can relate to, so I know there's someone else that had this kind of stress.

Time to go get ready,



One more thing, I told my girlfriend about my blog. It felt so weird, yet I really wanted to so bad. I'm not sure why, I just really wanted to.

Bye

Loneliness/LOVE

Ahh, god what is wrong with me. I feel so fucking alone. I have no thought what so ever of what to do. I have a few that are there for me, Ive spoke to them all. All of about 3. I feel so alone though, depressed at times. I strongly believe I'm in a stage of my life where I have to grow up and take responsibility for myself and just try and make it through and I WILL over come this. All it takes is time, and I am getting through it.

Anywho.


There' is this girl.
I L♥ VE her with all my heart. If I was knowledgeable of a word that could replace Love with something stronger, I would say that. I mean there's nothing more I would want then to be with her for the rest of my life. I think she's the most beautiful girl I have ever met, inside and out, the most amazing girl on earth. She DECIMATES THE WEAK, she just obliterates any girl. No girl can be compared to her. She's not the nicest person, nor the meanest, it's just right though. I want to grow old with her, I want to fall in love with her. I want to be just right for her. She is my everything. She's my first thought and my last. She's like heroin, I don't think I can ever get enough of her. She's always there for me no matter what, and I will always be there for her, no matter what. I really hope nothing ever gets between us, that she will never disapear, or nothing ever happens to her. I really don't know what I would do, I think I would go insane and just literally explode into little peices, no not really. I think I would just do about anything for her, she's the sweetest, and cutest girl ever, she knows what exactly what I want to hear. She knows me inside and out, backwards and sideways. I'm just about figuring her inside and out. I sometimes doubt my knowledge of her and think bad. Im not sure why I do this but i sometimes do. I have learned not to and I am starting to make things better then they are, as in making good even better. I am proud of myself! Sometimes I wish I was just like her EVERYTHING. But that's just wishing too much, right? One day ill be close to that, when we finally move in, and get married. We'll be eachothers life. We wont be one of those couples who dread their relationship because they have to worry about always having to be with eachother, we wont be one of those couples who just go to dinner and have a serious conversation and just stare at eachother all day, we'll be one of those couples where others look at and just go "oh im so jealous, I wish I had that." She's my best friend and the love of my life. I don't want anyone else but her. Just hopefully if she ever reads this, she wont think it is too "unauthentic."

Well time to go run more errands/chores/ETC.

Bye!

SELLouts

So, I've been thinking about this. So many fucking bands are just becoming so terribly lame. I'm guessing it's just the "fan-base" they have. Like the band has fans who just shouldn't represent the band.

Not to be a jerk or anything, but I don't think anyone really likes "scene kids" anymore. It was just a fashion but it just turned into this entire thing dealing with myspace and kids who just sit on their computer all day on myspace with these little "clubs" I guess you can say. They just have a collage of people on it, and at the top are the "owners." And your rank in the "club" depends on how many friends you have. What the hell is this? Lamest thing I have seen in a LONG time.
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? >>>>>
You can't see her face, her hair looks like she just woke up, or she got in a fight with a fucking lawn mower. OH and WHY THE HELL IS IT UPSIDE DOWN? I mean some people put their pictures upside down just for the hell of it, to be funny. BUT LIKE CMON when every...single...fucking...PICTURE. is upside down, why???? Hah.

Excuse me for ranting.

Band's I have noticed that are just going down the drain are: Bring Me The Horizon(off the back they are just going ↓) The Devil Wears Prada. (every other kid has their shirt and they don't even listen to the music) There just are so many bands that now adays suck.

I'm really not sure what to say about "A Day To Remember" Their fan-base is HUGE. It consists of "brootal" doods, Scensters, emo's, almost everything. You really can't hate A Day To Remember. None of their songs are bad, they almost all have good meaning and don't sound the same. I give A Day To Remember BIG FUCKING PROPS.


Any who, I cannot wait for Despised Icons new album. It's going to be amazing!


I'm off to run some errands.

Bye!

P.S I left some download links for some music that I think should be checked out.


Molotov Solution
Myspace

Tracklist:
1. Warlords
2. Rule by Secrecy
3. Only the Dead
4. Atrum Inritus
5. Corpus Imperium
6. Monolithic Apparatus
7. The Harbinger
8. Enslaved
9. Awakening
10. Living Proof
11. The Dawn of Ascendency

Download



Despised Icon (MVP, DAY OF MOURNING)
Myspace

1. Day Of Mourning
2. MVP

Download

Boring

It seems I'm a boring person. Not many people respond to my texts, I am ignored on the Networking websites I visit. What am I doing wrong?

Ehh ill get over it.

Anyways.

I still have the one I love, even though she doesn't seem to show much interest when i try and communicate with her over text messages or I.M's or anything like that.

She's probably just busy and I'm over reacting just a bit.




Oh!

It's the end of the week! Hopefully this week will be well, I have a feeling it will be a good one. Hopefully.


I need money too, I have like no money and there are some events in the near future i want to attend. Hopefully I get one soon. Need that dough!



I want to dedicate this song to my girlfriend but I'm scared someone might had already done so :/

Communication.

I kinda realized i don't talk to anyone anymore. Mainly because I'm tired of always having to try and be the one to communicate. I'm tired of it, and the people who do talk to me always just want something from me. God I think I'm such a tool at times.



3rd day of college today. It's ok, i just hate the fact that everyone is so...the same.
This school is such a trendy place.

All the girls look like that >>>


Well time to clean up and get ready for school. Bye!