I wake up... I'm alone.
I go to sleep... I'm alone.
In class... I sit alone. (Students at my school are rich snobs)
I get home... I'm alone. Most of the time.
I watch TV... Alone.
I sit in my room... Alone.
I eat dinner... Alone
I eat lunch... Alone.
I play games... Alone.
I watch movies... Alone.
I eat breakfast... Alone.
I do homework... Alone.

My life seems pretty lonely.

I want new friends that can be there for me. There are 3 I know that will always be there for me. I hope they will.
I don't know what I would do without them.

I can leave forever and only 3 would know I was gone.

I hate this place.


I have no motivation right now. I don't even know what's keeping me going right now. It's either the thought that one day I will be successful and have my own home or the thought that I will make someone proud in my life, and they will tell really meaning it.









There's always been a feeling like some kind of presence is with me. I don't feel alone but I know that I am. It just feels like something knows what I'm doing. Something knows what I'm thinking. Something knows what I'm going to do. Something knows where I am at all times. Except when I'm with "her" that presence feels like it vanishes and everything is perfect. She doesn't know she makes me feel like that. Or maybe she does?