Ehhh

I'm like messing something up, and I don't want to.

I have been on a good amount of days of not like tripping out, or like being negative towards myself. Last night I was. I didn't want to be but for some reason I did. I am in a fight with my sub-conscious which makes me like this at times and myself. I shall be better.

I feel bad because I always do this while on the phone with my girlfriend. I feel so bad doing this towards her, and I just...I don't know. I don't want to make worse of what we have. I miss her after a few days because It's like a drug being with her. I'm just so addicted, and I just adore her so much.

I will cure myself. I will stay strong. Change is something I plan to do. To a more positive of a person.





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I have so much on my mind. I feel so weird.
I need to let to let it out.